Preface

"What makes you, you ?"

I think that does not depend on the choices you make rather you always know what choice you are going to make in the end. Result of those choices is what makes it scary sometimes. No one in this world wants to be the wrong guy at least in his own eyes which results in an unbearable itch in your head which you can't scratch. You always want to be on the right side somehow. It makes you feel safe and promise that you'll be able to sleep well. But that doesn't mean you are right. Does it ? 

So.. what makes anything right or wrong. This is a tricky question because there is nothing which is right or wrong. There is nothing which is 100% right or wrong. But we try to close the gap with every other choice me make. The other gap which we try to keep intact is the amount of pain we can reduce. With pain comes a hope of peace and relief which always fades away easily. Pain is what rips you apart and show you whats inside. Deep down who you are. What exactly are you and what makes you real!

Some days just don't end. Some days do make a difference. Some days just divide everything in two unlike others. I am glad for these days because these are the ones which actually matters. Today is one of these days and I need to make a choice. Or have I already made it ? Funny thing about it is even not making a choice makes it a choice somehow. The plan was to be someone else just like everybody around and its not working anymore. 

"This made me, me !"

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